Thirsty

For some reason I was really thirsty tonight. I blamed it on the hamburgers we made for dinner.
I kept thinking another glass of water would fix it.
Still thirsty.

It wasn't until tonight, a little after midnight I realized why I'd needed it.
I needed it to feed the tears, sweat, and spit of another terrible cry.

Mike and I were talking about having kids.
Logistical stuff, planning.

We talked about how some things you just have to pick a date and go from there, like our wedding.

"Remember how I kept wanting to change the wedding date to November? It's a good thing we didn't because at least my dad was there..."

Then I lost it.

flood deluge wave drown

To describe the overwhelming sick sad hateful fucking feelings that ensued.

I needed that water tonight.